time flies so fast and all we know its september already. a year had passed since joseph first sent me a message and as what he's always saying; he found me again after 14 years...it's been a year already (sept 1 to be exact) and all i can say is it was worth the wait, worth opening my eyes, worth being sensitive to what he's calling l-o-v-e and yes, i am extremely happy and fulfilled. totally different from the happiness and fulfillment i am getting whenever i do something for others or just for myself since i am a "me" person before he came though not in a selfish way. i just learned to love and respect myself more as time pass by; experience was indeed a good teacher and i have tons. still, i am always giving 100% of me but along the way i learned how to get back to my senses and treat myself back. at the moment, relationship wise, i couldn't ask for more. completeness has nothing to do with physical togetherness. anyways, we're into this together. i still feel complete, contented, fulfilled, revived, blessed and the list goes on.

september is also my month, another year older - another year wiser. actually i already bought myself some gifts though some on my lists like the blue wedge shoes and pink ballet flats i've been eyeing since last month is still there and the cebu/bohol trip and the vigan/pagudpod trip and maybe some Asian tour and the charity work which is now in process. i'm not a big earner (maybe a big spender  ) but a lil something can give a huge smile to others, after all we need to share our blessings no matter how big or small it is. i have simple desires and sometimes fancy ones too, i can be easily pleased and right now what i wanted was something close to reality...still waiting on my list to be crossed out are wi-fi phone, slr camera, phillip stein watches, LV, european tour, egypt and south african tour to name a few. well, on top of that are my wishes for my family, my beybi and my friends. and of course i'm still aiming for that house i wanna build on the lot that i'm claiming it's mine since they have no one else to give it to  but the house will still be for my parent's though. oh well,  i just need to wait for that one thing i am praying for to achieve all those. i am staying positive and keeping the faith...it'll be given in God's time.

at this point, i just need to take it easy. enjoy the job that pays the bills  that in fact it's been a year also since we signed the contract (sept 3 to be exact) and flew to US for training and some work, go back to the gym, yoga classes and maybe a dance class, read and study more, more time watching tv and movies, pampering myself and sleeping...grueling 17 working hours every other day is over. i miss the clinic though, the patients and my fellow PT's..i miss giving care and treatment at the same time learning and interacting with different types of people. it became unhealthy (i am gaining weight and getting sick) that's why i need to stop even if i still don't want to, my body just quit...three months is very short but soon i will be back and definitely it will be out of the country already. it will still be a long tough road, bumps and curves everywhere but i am ready to face it and enjoy the ride. i am holding on to my love and my dreams. life is indeed a great journey and thanking HIM is not just enough...