just for the record, he made me cry awhile ago while we are talking. that was the first! it was not something he did though.. i told him it was okay, just don't me make cry for the reason that i am least expecting him to do and he assured me that he will not do anything. i have a big trust in him...anyway, he just teased me if i miss the clinic and yeah i soo miss it; the people and what i am doing and it sink in to me that i cried!  i am such a crybaby!!! i really miss what i'm doing, that was my passion.  anyway, as what he's always saying  that i am getting there and it's getting near. i have big hopes  and  i can go back to the clinic any time i want to. i just need to rest at the moment.

it's overwhelming i can cry to him right now, it's really like we've grown so close at a very short span of time. i am not worrying if i look stupid or sound odd when crying and the fact that i can tell him everything and totally entrusting my feelings and insights be it so deep,so confidential or just so nonsense.  oh well, enough of my blah. below is the lyrics of my so fave song at the moment...just wanna share, just for the record.

I can't help myself
If I don't wanna be with nobody else
I don't wanna leave my baby's side
And I don't wanna kiss another guy
I'll pass any test
Cause nothing in this world or in the next
Could make me second guess
Could make me change my mind
Could make me not protect what I'm feeling inside

Cause I'm smart enough to know that this is a good thing
Please believe it, please believe it
And I'm smart enough to stay right where I belong
And I'm faithful enough to know that this is meant to be
And if it's not, the don't speak
Don't ruin it, let me dream

[Chorus]
Hear me, hear me
This is for my baby
There will never be another
There's so many ways I love you
And that's just for the record, babe
I need you, need you
I can't wait to see you
I so love when were together
Can't nobody do it better
And that's just for the record, babe

I can't be perfect
No one is flawless
But rest in mind
I'll be there through the good and the bad and the ugly and worse
So if it's something that you're lacking
Go and tell me first

Cause I'm smart enough to know that this is a good thing, yeah
Smart enough to stay right where I belong, oh no no no
And I'm faithful enough to know that this is meant to be
And if it's not, the don't speak
Don't ruin it, let me dream

[Chorus]
Hear me, hear me
This is for my baby
There will never be another
There's so many ways I love you
And that's just for the record, babe
I need you, need you
I can't wait to see you
I so love when were together
Can't nobody do it better
And that's just for the record, babe

So if there's any way to cheat
Don't tell me 'cause I don't wanna know
And if there's any way to leave
Don't tell me 'cause I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go to sleep 'cause I don't wanna miss you
This is team and I love my position
Lead me anywhere, I'll go with you there
I'll go with you there